A load gun to my head. One move and im dead You never wanted me So why don’t you let me be I take back all the words I said The lies, the truth, all of it So just sit back and relax Through all of this Don’t bother to stop me The gun is cocked and ready Just say the three magic words And im out of your life and everybody elses Don’t hold a funeral Don’t be surprised if no comes Don’t be surprised if no cries No one ever really loved me Just let me be another forgotten face

The blade against my skin I can feel the skin tearing as it slides across I see little red droplets appear from under the blade The droplets turn into a crimson line The line turns into pool of blood Its too late to save me

Why do I always fall for you? I tell myself im over you And that I never loved you But whenever I see you with her It all comes back to me I don’t love you I never did I never will You were just my tiny crush But you crushed me into a thousand pieces And now im stuck putting them back together Why cant you see what you did to me? Im tired of being your little doll I just hope the next girl that loves you Falls just as hard as I did

Your lips Capable of lies My heart Hanging on your words My mind Believing everything you say My life Dedicated to you Me Needing you by my side You Possibly needing me too?

See these scars? They are for you Since you chose her over me I hope you are happy with your choice Because I want you to know its killing me

Everytime you are around I bite my tongue Because blood in my mouth Is better than tears on the ground

He kisses her forehead one last time He remembers better days And now he wonders why she had to die Never knowing how much they secretly loved each other

Why is it when I want to die You save me But once I want to live You kill me

Everything in my life is fake So wont you come pretend with me?

Memories of better days Turn the pages back to a fade photograph Of memories of yesterdays The years will pass by But they’ll never bring you back to me

Promises mean everything But once they are broken Sorry means nothing

Just wait Someday you will want me back But I wont being waiting for you

I only wish I could hate you I love you, you stupid fuck

As the cuts fade The emotions return

Id rather be blind Than see you happy with her

You say we arent right for each other But how I see it We arent right for anyone else

I bet next time I see you Youll have a smile on you face While ill have tears in my eyes

You told me you loved me But I guess like everything else That was just a lie

Please don’t forget me Because I know I could never forget you

Look at her She hasn’t been the same since you left her

These break up songs are starting to make sense again And it doesn’t look too good for us right now

Some say its puppy love Some say its lust But let me tell you What I feel for you is 100% true love

Can you feel this pain? Do you even know real pain? Or do you just cry for attention? Have you ever woken up wanting to die? Ever looked in the mirror and started to cry Because you see something ugly? But realize its you in the mirror Have you ever cut just to see if you were still living No you havent

You don’t know real pain And when you do itll kill you

Pain is heartache Pain is an emotional heartbreak Pain is a roller coaster That is filled with twist turns and hills Pain is an emotional medication Best taken if it were a pill Pain is love Love is an emotional bond that holds me to you Pain is the love that forces me to seduce you Take you into my world mold and console you Pain is the way you walked out of my life Love is the way I got over my hurt you left

This pain This stress I need a way out But all the doors are locked And I don’t have a key I know you have a key Wont you rescue me from this hell?

A period of crying can betray the soul Showing the pain that makes us whole Without pain what would happiness be? Would it be there for us to see Would we not know happiness Without pain how could you tell what was best? Is our pain in a way needed? Is it somehow misleading? Trying to show us yet we get caught Too selfish to busy with my own thought But when you are happy of the pain Oh think how good it is to be happy again

As the music slows down As the lights dim The couples move closer together Bringing tears to my eyes Bringing misses memories to my mind Bringing the thought of you to my mind Not like it wasn’t already there I try not to let anyone see my tears But its too late My best friend could see the tears Before they fell

She doesn’t ask whats wrong Because she already knows its you You’ve taken over my mind I love you

I miss you I need you But that doesn’t matter to you To you im just another girl Who has fallen head over heels for you But I know you don’t care And I know youll never feel the same about me I wish you would just notice me

Locked in her room Music blaring No one hears her screams She wants to end it all right now But she wont because she loves him He might not care But she still loves him He doesn’t even notice her No one ever does An outcast the black rose Among the red and pink ones Everyone so quick to judge her When she is really just like them Wanting to fit it and to be seen It seems the only way Shes had enough She grabs the knife And put its through her heart The next day no one notices shes gone Except for him…

My eyes have stopped searching because I can honestly say that my heart has finally found exactly what it's looking for

she covers her arm to hide the scars she remembers someone saying 'no one cares who you are' she brought a ticket and came to the dance she gave socializing a second chance she sat in the back, from everyone she fled she cut up her arm and cried as she bled people stayed away as she bled on the floor tears ran down her face as she cut some more 'what is she doing?' 'how long has she cried?' they asked as they watched this innocent suicide

Shes tired of crying herself to sleep Shes tired of cutting her wrists so deep Shes tired of no one knowing these feelings in which she keep She writes a note, The last one she ever wrote She ties the rope way up high and there she hangs soon to die

well i'm a mess i can never make up my mind and i never know what i want i always fall for the wrong guy or the guy i know will never like me i lie i make up stories and i get jealous really easily i'm everything you were warned against and taught to be afraid of i am a musician without a song i am a writer left speechless i'm everything you told yourself you'd never go for but you couldn't help but wonder i love you but darling i am who i am i won't budge an inch

so take your diamond bland shaped tears and maybe i'll see you in twenty years and i will always wear your ring the turned my finger green let's swing on the swings and slide down the slides rock paper scissor shoot for who loves the other one more then we'll whisper and giggle pinky promise we'll never stop loving each other

Once upon a time I was a happy and optimistic little girl Once upon a time I was always kind and sweet to all Once upon a time the only cuts I had where from the playground Once upon a time I was okay

there are so many words that can explain you beautiful tough romantic carin thoughtful kind sweet sensitive but theres not a single word that can explain how I feel when im wit you

10 bucks says youll be crawlin into bed wit me puttin your hands where they dont belong & 10 bucks says youll be puttin your lips where they dont belong either but 10 bucks says i wont say no

no matter how hard you try to get over someone you once loved youll still have feelins for them rememberin the way things used to be & how they are now & sometimes you still want everything to be how it used to be erasin all the bad things that happened time is supposed to ease the pain but its not that easy when it comes to love even though weve been apart for a while i still cant help but wonder how your life is becuz we used to be so close & i cant help but wonder if your heart beats a lil faster like mine does everytime i think of you

you know wat you should leave me for her you should go out wit anyone your heart desires becuz eventually i know what will happen see your gonna be wit all those other girls but none of those girls are gonna be like me im different than all of them your goin to realize that im the one you should be wit & your goin to come back to me break my heart now but im tellin youll be back when you realize that you left the one girl who was meant to be wit you but see the thing is you just better hope the girl is still there after your wit all the other girls

you know your in love when you can say anything to the person & you know they wont laugh at you when you can see their face when you close your eyes when you can still feel their arms around you holdin you long after they are gone when you miss them before they are gone when their voice lingers in your ears when their presence eases any pain when they are the only thing you can think bout when your tears stain not only their shirt but also their heart when they hurt just becuz of these tears you know your in love when you cant imagine livin witout them & cant figure how did you live before you knew them when they fulfill every need & witout them you are incomplete

theres something else im finally thinkin of someone elses smile is takin over my heart im tryin so hard not to let you know that i still am tryin to let go ill be damned if i let you know that i still find it hard to sleep at nite someone else is makin me smile but that doesnt mean i havent stopped cryin over you

never believe people that say love is the greatest feelin in the world becuz not all people feel the same it maybe the greatest feelin for some but for others it is the worst the word love itself can bring happiness to someone but for others it brings tears so only believe wat you wanna believe bout the word love you have a right to state your own opinion

i dont even know why im still around why im still waitin for you why i still let you hurt me i heard the rumors that you want her again & that was just another piece of me that you broke how many times are you gonna go back to her i really wish that those rumors werent true but it doesnt even matter anymore i guess that becuz ill never be her ill never be good enough for you i wish you could see that im the one that loves you im the one that cares so much bout you & im the one you should be wit but i guess in your eyes im not the one

although ill always love you & remember the times we had youre a sorry lil bastard & you hurt me really bad although you think its funny & only time will tell that payback is a bitch & i hope you burn in hell although you were a great lover that i will admit but when it comes to bein a man honey you aint shit

i know he may not be the cutest guy to you but he is to me & theres just something bout him that makes my heart drop to my feet everytime i see him

everyone always tells us you should go out youd be so cute together then at the automatic same time we reply no although you & i both know that we should but then everyone says all you two do is flirt wit each other & we reply no we dont yet we both know that we do we tell them all that were just friends but we know we both want to become more its sorta weird that after we always say the opposite of what everyone says about us we end up givin other that same flirtatious lovin stare

when im older & my lil girl ask me who my first love was i dont wanna have to pull out the old photo album i wanna be able to point across the room & say hes sittin right over there

dont you just love it you think your best friend knows you until you start to lie & say your fine dont you love it how she never notices but a complete stranger does

just once i want someone to look at me & right away think im beautiful not after they get to know me or after they see inside my soul just me i wanna walk into a room & light it up

she hits the lights this doesnt seem quite fair despite everything he learned from his friends he doesnt feel prepared shes breathin quiet & smooth hes gaspin for air this is the first & last time he says she fakes a smile & presses her hips into his he keeps his hands pinned down at his sides hes holdin back from tellin her exactly what it really feels like

your screwed when you crave pain you wanna bleed all throughout your brain the blood in my veins is proof of life im not sure if its there so i reveal it wit a knife

remember when friends didnt lie to you & the worst thing anyone ever called you was a meanie remember when you were judged on how nice you were & how you only wanted to hear 'i love you' from your mom well now friends barely tell you the truth girls will call you a ton of things that will make you wanna cry now your judged on how expensive your clothes are & youd give up every single time your mom ever told you how she loved you just to hear him say it once

love is seein him how no one else does love is when you know hes not perfect but you see him perfectly love is thinkin about him day & nite love is when he means the world to you love is when no one else knows how you feel

she was desperate she stopped him in the hallway i love you more then youll ever know i cry myself to sleep whisperin your name i dream about all day you why cant we go back to bein in love he stared her in the eye & said from the bottom of his heart we cant go back to bein in love becuz i never loved you

when his tongue is down my throat all thats goin through my head are thoughts of you its kinda funny but its kinda sad how your name is the only name i ever listen for & when his fingers are entwined wit mine our conversation from the nite before keeps me occupied you know i only kiss him to make you jealous but its tragic really becuz you never will be & when i lie wit him on my bed ill exchange my empty words wit his meaningful ones i should feel guilty but i dont feel anything for anyone but you

dearly beloved we are gathered here today to mourn everything worth mournin the broken laugh the empty hearts the secret tears & the ones who dont love us back there will always be that one girl wearin green among the black dresses & the other women might stick up their noses but deep down they all know shes the only one there who knows herself everyone wants to be in love & not the kind thats special like gettin dressed up to see a play downtown but the kind of love thats special like 60 degrees on your birthday when youre birthday is in february

he loved that girl more than anybody could understand in his eyes that girl was perfect everytime he talked to her he would get nervous & his body would start to tingle he loved bein around her they talked about everything but that small strong phrase that he dared not let out of his mouth but he held on to everything hopin one day shell understand what she means to him one day shell understand what he went through every day he would watch her & get this feelin deep down & he knew he was in love but he never said a word until one special day when the girl told him she had feelins for him & he froze up how could he react like this all his dreams his wishes they were finally comin true so how could he not say that he liked her too months later the girl gave up & his world crashed he couldnt help but cry to this day he has the very same feelins for her & to this day he regrets not lettin her know

you have no idea how much you mean to me i really do love you but i guess that doesnt matter becuz you dont feel the way i do i never thought itd come to this i thought everything would be alright of all the boys in the whole world you were the one who caught my sight i grew to fall in love wit you could break my heart i know whats gonna happen were gonna grow apart these feelins i have are strong the pain wont go away id do anything in this world just to make you stay but sometimes its just not good enough no matter how hard you try but all you can do is wonder sit around wonderin why all the pain ive ever felt never felt this strong but i guess just like everytime my heart directed me wrong

have you ever really thought about it you got this girl head over heels in love wit you shed do anything for you shed die for you but for some reason you dont wanna see that you know its there & you know that you feel the same way but you refuse to let it be maybe your scared maybe youre scared of the thought that this girl who youve known forever youve seen her happy youve seen her sad maybe this girl is perfect for you & that really scares you doesnt it

what is cute its young & inexperienced holdin hands in the car & kissin at all the red lights what is sexy its standin in the rain as you push me up against the hood of your car tearin my shirt as you kiss me wit the intention of never stoppin what is passion its knowin what you want & stoppin at nothin until you get it what is beautiful its all about the inside of a person beauty can only be found in the heart what is love its the amazin balance of all these things in your heart body & soul.

you didnt fall in love you crashed into it but this time the feelins arent the same he doesnt really love you to him your just another girl you dont believe what your friends tell you for some reason you think he can change your just another toy to him soon hell throw you away & youll realize everyone was right & soon youll end up like me alone confused & just plain fucked up

love is goin to bed at nite knowin that there is one person out there whos thinkin of you at the same moment its to have the last call of the day the one last person you want to talk to while lyin in bed just before the day is over its a smile its the only thing you want to do when your in love but if theres not a smile on your face you can feel it in your heart its forgivin you may fight & go through rough times but love gives the power to forgive & work things out love is understandin & acceptin love involves confusion & excitement love is the one thing you can never live witout

i dont know what love is but when im wit you i feel like the safest person in the world i forget bout everything else nothin else matters its bout the here & now & when you leave its a waitin game becuz all i want is the next day i get to see you & thats the reason i keep on goin everyday in hopes that today is the next day i get to spend even a minute wit you so if this isnt love it should be becuz its the greatest feelin in the world

shes been through more than the average girl can take if you ask her she will say its all in the past & shes never lookin back but you can tell by her eyes she never wants to deal wit it again

you cut to forget someone else would eat a whole lot of chocolate when they dont feel so happy you lock yourself up & try to cut your memories away you look like a normal person til someone brings up things you dont wanna think bout but its hard to forget things you are completely obsessed wit

lets pretend this isnt over & that theres still a glimpse of hope & lets pretend were still together & that nuttin has gone wrong & ill dream of you tonite like when we were younger & the secrets escaped our lips like lyrics in a song

for every ounce of pain you inflicted on me & every tear you made me cry i seriously hope it comes back to you i hope you stay up late at nite on the verge of givin up i hope it hurts to smile & you have to pretend to be happy but mostly for every lie of i love you that you told me i hope you feel as helpless & lonely as ive learned to feel

so we locked ourselves in your car got lost in each others eyes we sang to the radio he whispered in her ear & shed laugh at his silly jokes even if they were pointless he grabbed her hand & wont let go he had no idea how happy it made her shed rest her head on his shoulder close her eyes listen to their song while he kissed her forehead she memorized the touch of his lips she didnt wanna leave anytime soon & hed give her his jacket when she told him she was cold it would be 3 in the mornin but theyd still be tangled in each other she knew he was something special it was different how he moved her becuz when he told her 'good bye' to her it still felt like 'hello'

my doctor says i need to eliminate stress i gave her one look & said read tomorrows headline a day early ‘massacre at middle school’

dearly beloved we are gathered here today to mourn the loss of yet another empty soul for whom death was the only way out

you wrapped your arms around me pressin your body again mine & in that moment of perfection i knew we were meant to be & i never wanted you to let me go

friends yea i have lots of friends those connivin blood suckin wenches who knife me between the shoulder blades repeatedly yea ive got tons of them